07.29.09
And I’m Back!
So my whole “I’m going to blog more” idea did not work out as well as I thought it would. There are several reasons as to why I have been MIA so I will break it down for you guys bullet point style:
- WORK-Yes, my soul sucking job has been kicking my ass lately. I know I should be thankful that I have a steady job and believe me I am but that does not mean I have to love it.
- ADOPTED CHILDREN-What? You didn’t know? I have like 5 adopted children…actually they are my cousins but you would never know that since I am constantly having to be their surrogate mother. For someone who did not even want children– this is quite a role
- PARTY PLANNING-One of my few marketable talents is event planning. I am not all crafty and cutesy but I can plan one hell of an event. My aunt has enlisted my help in planning my cousin’s Quinceanera (basically the Mexican version of a Sweet Sixteen) and let me tell you-this party is going to rock! (More about this later!)
- MY DAUGHTER-this kid has been having one hell of a summer—tennis lessons, swim lessons, countless play dates, trips to the beach, Great America, the aquarium, hikes…I can barely keep with her! I bitch about it from time to time but the reality is I would not have it any other way. I’m also very very grateful that I am able to give her these experiences.
I also took a little vacay with my baby last week so that didn’t help much but I’m back now and resolving to write at least once a week!
07.08.09
Soulmates
I came across this somewhere on the Internet but I really liked it and wanted to share it.
Clients regularly ask an astrologer about whether or not a particular individual that interest them is their “soul mate.” The astrologer’s response is usually that there is no way to know from an astrological chart alone whether or not a person is your soul mate. We can compare the charts to judge compatibility on a number of different levels, but compatibility alone is not a valid criterion to judge whether or not any two people are soul mates.
In fact, the person with whom you’re most compatible may not be a soul mate. The sad truth is, soul mate relationships can be the most painful, the most distressing, and the most heartrending of any love bond that you could ever experience. There is a lot of misinformation circling the popular media about soul mates. You don’t just have one soul mate; you have dozens, if not hundreds.
Soul mates are beings who emerged from the same group soul as you, and who have been with you for thousand’s of years, life after life. However many soul mates you may have – there is no set figure – you are all trying to get back together, to complete the cycle of soul evolution and rejoin. And from there, who knows where we go?
A soul mate doesn’t necessarily have to be a love partner. A soul mate can be a parent, a sibling, a best friend, a helpful neighbor, a favorite teacher, or simply a compassionate stranger who helps you at a time of great need, then disappears from your life. What many people believe to be “soul mates” are actually what Elizabeth Clare Prophet termed “twin flames.” Twin flames are beings that manifested from the same group at the exact same time, and thus are like identical twins that are so much a part of each other they can never bear being apart.
Unfortunately, as very few of us are identical twins, very few of us have a twin flame. And they aren’t always love partners, either. According to Edgar Cayce, Jesus of Nazareth and his mother Mary are twin flames. Yet the relationship between Jesus and Mary was hardly an easy one. Like soul mate relationships, twin flame relationships can be devastating. Soul mate or twin flame, these beings are not sent here to bring us endless evenings of champagne, moonlight, and red roses. We come together to LEARN. Astrologers experience clients who complain that they never want another soul mate relationship again!
It’s so true what that piece said: sometimes the soul mate relationships are the most painful. They are beautiful and special in a way that is almost impossible to describe but the pain they bring is just as strong as the love. As painful as it has been, I feel lucky to have met a man I consider my soul mate. Our romantic relationship was not a long one but the impact of it will forever be a part of me. I LEARNED allot in the brief time we were together and his friendship means the world to me. I hope that my love was a lesson for him as well.
Today and Always–I keep him with me in my heart.
07.07.09
Amazing
Actual Conversation:
Belle-you know I picked you to be my mommy
Me-What? You picked me?
Belle-Yeah, when I was in heaven before I was born, I got to pick my mommy and I chose you.
Me-WHY?? OMG…if you actually had a choice why the hell would you pick me??
Belle-Because I knew you would be a great mom even though you did not know it yourself.
Me-Hmmmmm……(speechless)
My child never ceases to amaze me…we have had variations of that conversation many times over . She is convinced that she picked me and at this point I choose to believe her. I am constantly in awe of her. She is such an amazing little person…it is still hard to believe she is my daughter. She carries herself with a confidence and poise that I truly admire. At my 29 years of age, I have not mastered that ability. She is smart, talented, funny, sweet, and just the right amount of sassy. She is everything I ever wanted to be.
A couple weeks ago, we went to my Dad’s retirement party. I was nervous that she would get bored or fussy since it was really an adult function and she didn’t know anyone other than my Dad. Like always, the kid blew me away–she was so friendly and social, chatting with my old friends and laughing at my old high school pictures. At one point, she was walking across the room towards me, a huge smile on her face and I swear I could see the woman she will someday be. It was an incredible moment for me–one that made me both proud and sad all at once but also that reminded me how very lucky I am that “out of all the mommys in the world” (her words) she CHOSE me.
