The lovely Erin at Irascible Crayons gave me the “Honest Scrap Award” :

The Honest Scrap award is given by other bloggers who consider a blog’s content or design to be brilliant. The awardee must then post ten honest things about themselves and pass the award on to other bloggers who fit the bill – in other words, whose blog is brilliant.

Erin-thank you so much for this. I started this blog just as an outlet for my thoughts and experiences so it means allot to me that you  enjoy it!

So 10 honest things about me? Here they go:

1. My daughter is the center of my Universe– I have never loved anyone the way I love her. Her happiness and well being define and motivate everything I do.  There is nothing in this world I would not do for her. When I die, she will be my greatest legacy and my one true love.

2. I am scared that I am 29 and still have no idea what I want to do in life–I have a “good job” but I hate it and unlike so many people around me I have no idea what my “true calling” is.  When I was younger I had a much different vision of what my life would be and of course nothing turned out that way.  I have faith that in time (hopefully soon!!) things will work out the way they are supposed to.

3. I have two sisters that I have never met– And as awful as it may be…I have no plans to meet them. My father remarried shortly after he and my mom divorced and he had two more daughters. I know they had nothing to do with the divorce but to me they represent a huge loss in my life and I do not see them as my sisters. I always refer to them as “my father’s daughters”. (I know, I know how awful that sounds!!)

4. Even though my real father was not around I have a wonderful Dad in my life–I was 15 when I joined the yearbook staff at school. Our adviser took me under his wing and became the dad I never had.  Every wonderful school memory I have is all due to him. My first trip to Yosemite, Disneyland, New York…all with him. He is a great man and I am so lucky to have him in my life. I love you Dad!!!

5. I love to write–granted I am not a very good writer…but I love it anyway.  It is very soothing for me and allows me to get things off my chest without paying my therapist by the hour! Many years ago I even got an award for my writing. A Gold Circle Award from Columbia University…what a great day that was.

6. Sometimes  I miss the girl I used to be–It doesn’t happen often but every now and then I miss the carefree girl I used to be.  I know that I am a much better woman now but that girl? She lived in a way I will never live again. She lived in the moment, trusted people completely and loved with all she had to give.  The blows life has dealt me have all but buried her away.

7. Music soothes my soul–I LOVE music! My taste in music is very eclectic and includes a little bit of everything.  I have a ton of “omg that is so my favorite song ever!!” I admire musicians deeply and wish I had some creative talent like that.

8. Martha Stewart? I am not!–I have zero domestic talents. I don’t cook, don’t knit, don’t sew and most definitely don’t scrapbook (which makes me a little sad).  I can bake so maybe that counts for something?

9.I am a terrible driver–But I’m working on it!!! I tell people all the time “but I taught myself to drive” as if that should excuse my sorry attempts at driving! I have smiled and sweet talked my way out of more tickets than I care to admit.  I promised someone that I would try very very hard to be a better driver and so far so good!

10. Despite my bitchy exterior…I am super super sensitive–At work I am known as the “the girl you don’t mess with” I can dish it out with the  best of them and my one liners have been known to leave grown men speechless.  I can be a world class bitch when I have to be but that is not who I am deep inside. I am really very sensitive and cry very very easily. I was just smart enough to learn early on that “sensitive” does not bode well for a job in the field I chose.

There are my truths…I am now passing the award on to Carmen over at

http://carmensincity.blogspot.com/

I love her blog for it’s honesty and her spunk!