04.21.09
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4.21—this was “our day”—the day that was to hold so much meaning for us. It didn’t turn out the way either of us imagined but that does not change it’s meaning for me. It will always be “our day” in my mind and in my heart. Those moments we shared when our lives became interwoven and you became part of the fabric of my soul-those moments mean the world to me.
Are we friends, lovers or something in between? It is a fine line we walk, carefully choosing our words and actions trying hard not to define what we are to each other. I have said this to you before-I don’t need a title to validate my role in your life. I would have happily taken one but it is not a necessity for me. Your feelings and actions are the things that matter and through both you constantly remind me why I fell in love with you.
04.16.09
Happy Birthday
My Darling Princess,
Today you will wake up to hugs and kisses and cupcakes and presents! Today, I will hold you in my arms and thank God and the Universe for allowing me the privilege of being your mother, for giving us 8 wonderful years together. Eight? I can hardly believe it. I can hardly believe that it was 8 short years ago that I held you in my arms for the first time. I close my eyes and go back to the moment when we locked eyes for the very first time. That was the day when I understood what love at first sight is all about.
This motherhood thing is not easy. But you and I? Well, we have a way of making it work. As I watch you grow into a beautiful, talented girl, you are watching me grow into a better woman. You see me struggle and when I am down-your love is the only thing that saves me. Your zest for life inspires me and keeps me focused on the things that count.
My love- never forget that I adore you. You are my everything and my reason for being. Every year I send the same birthday wish out for you–all the love, health and happiness that you deserve and the wisdom to appreciate it all.
Happy Birthday my darling girl!
All My Love,
Mom
04.15.09
Dear Universe…
Dear Universe,
You and I both know that all things considered-I have been a VERY good girl this year. Yes, I have had some slip ups now and then but compared to previous years? I’d say this was one of my best yet–I got through my 28th year with no traffic tickets (and just a few pull overs!), no major fights with my father, the ex, or any other family member, followed just about every order my doctor gave me, was a good daughter/sister/cousin/niece/friend/employee and I think if you ask my daughter she will agree I was a pretty kick ass mom this year too! I stood up for the things I believe in even when it meant getting my heart broken. And even though it has taken some time-I am starting to like (and maybe even really love and appreciate) the woman I am today.
Since my birthday is a mere 30 days away, I thought I would help you out and put together a list (with pictures!) of all the things that would make my 29th birthday a great one! Now, I realize that just about everything on this list is crazy expensive but you know what? I don’t care-you and I both know I totally deserve it!
Yours Truly,
Me
this birthday girl wants some bling!
& the matching bracelet of course!
a hot dress to end my 20's in
every girl needs a pair of Louboutin's
OK...maybe two pairs!
a nice bag to tote all my "stuff"
