05.16.08
Slow Me Down
Last night as I lay in bed thinking about the realities of my life. The Good, The Bad and the OH MY GOD….I could not help but think about the lyrics to this song and marvel at how perfectly they fit my life.
I should have been happy yesterday..and part of me was. After all it was my birthday (and we all know how I feel about my birthday) but there was a part of me that just wanted to break down and cry. Cry for all the pain I have felt..for all that I have been through. For 28 years of trying to be happy and never quite getting it right. The thing that stopped those tears from flowing was the thought of all the great things people did for me to remind me that I matter. From the delicious birthday cake baked especially for me to the even more delicious massage that awaits me…the people behind those gestures wanted me to know they care. And I do. I know that they care and that I am so so lucky to have them in my life.
And so today…today I am slowing down.
05.13.08
She loves me like no other…
“Dear Mom, all the time we’v been together I’v wanted to say Thanks for all the love that you give to me. I love you so much! Happy Mother’s Day! Love, Your Daughter”
Really? How much sweeter can she be?
This Mother’s Day I was reminded once again of how blessed I am to have such an amazing, dynamic daughter. One who can inspire me to be a better woman in everything I do. Seeing her big seven year old printing on a card that only she could have picked out (you know…the card that reminds me that she is princess but that it’s all good cause that makes me a Queen) gives me an incredible reality check. My “baby” is a baby no more…she is a little girl who is quickly growing up and quickly taking everything in.
That is not what really gets to me though…the thing that leaves me breathless and overcome with emotion? Her pure and unconditional love for me. In her universe…I am the Queen. I am the center of her universe and she adores me. She knows I am not perfect and just as quick as she is to hug me, she will just as fast point out one of my many flaws. Yet despite all that…I know that she loves me like no other. I know her love for me is pure, deep and never ending. Just as my love is for her.
In the moments where I feel the world closing in on me…I stop and remember that a little girl loves and needs me. It is amazing how that one thought can put everything in perspective.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mom’s out there.
05.02.08
28 Things You Did Not Know About Me
Because it is Friday and I have no brain cells left…here are *28* little known facts about me!
- 1. I *LOVE* (aka can not live with out) Coca-Cola Classic. This stuff is running thru my veins and there have been times I thought I would die without it. Seriously.
- I don’t eat/drink “diet” anything. I would rather have a little of the real deal than subject myself to “diet” anything.
- In spite of the above I have managed to maintain my high school weight *even* after giving birth to a healthy baby girl.
- And…don’t think high school weight means I was a size 12 or anything…NOPE I was and still am a size FOUR!!
- I am addicted to Grey’s Anatomy…where can I find my very own Dr. Sheppard??
- I am terrified of Earthquakes…which is not so good since I live in California.
- I love to read…books, magazines, newspapers, blogs, anything and everything.
- I am a horribly picky eater..if it lived in the ocean–I wont touch it. Same goes for…oh a million other things.
- Beaches is one of my all time favorite movies..shut up…I know it is cheesy but the bond those women shared reminds me of my own life and of something I have lost forever.
- I taught myself how to drive…and it shows. Although having to drive my own child around has vastly improved my driving.
- I have a ridiculously good memory…especially for things I want to forget.
- My obsession with the number “25″ runs deep into my past & few people really know why…
- I truly believe every new parent (especially Dads) should have to listen to “Daughters” by John Mayer. That one song pretty much sums up my experience with my father.
- Every now and then, I still find it hard to believe that I AM A MOTHER…wow!
- I have terrible hand-eye coordination..actually it is more like non-existent.
- I hate to admit it but…I love stupid reality shows..The Hills? The Real Housewives of Orange County? Yup…watch them all the time
- Every morning I watch my local news and then 30 minutes of the “Today” show before I leave for work. I like to be informed.
- I have been watching the same nightly newscast for over 20 years (other wise known as most of my life) and in a couple of weeks my favorite anchor is retiring. I am very sad about this.
- I have an insane fascination with doing things I’m really not supposed to be doing..*sigh*..that has led to some interesting situations.
- Just to clarify..said things from above do not involve illegal substances or anything like that…I do have standards you know?
- I am not (as my daughter puts it) “a pet person”. Animals belong in the wild and/or in a zoo. Anywhere but my home.
- I have tons of cookbooks and have never tried to cook any of the recipes.
- I adore my grandma-she is the one person I can always count on. Huge plus-her cooking is to die for.
- My taste in music runs the gamut from Tupac (don’t laugh…he was a true poet) to Madonna to Nelly Furtado to Tim McGraw. It is all over the place but all completely me.
- I own way too much black clothes (especially for someone that does NOT work in a funeral home)…I am slowly trying to change this.
- I am short (5′2) therefore I wear very high heels..Allot..more than my back would like.
- I believe in Destiny and Fate..maybe more than I should.
- I *heart* my birthday…yes, I am one of those people who simply adores their birthday. I love when people do special things for me…it makes me smile for days.
*the reason there are 28 things about me? I will be turning 28 very soon! like this month soon!!*
